Grace

Grace amazes me. I echo every word of Amazing Grace. But perhaps the line that causes me to contemplate the most is 'that saved a wretch like me'. I've been pondering God's saving me lately, and more than that the fact that God saves anyone.
To see the gross sin of man every day of my life, internally and externally, and then to see through Scripture just how vile and offensive said sin is to a holy God causes me a great deal of wonderment. The fact that grace is undeserved makes the atoning blood of Christ all the more astounding to me, and drives me to more joyful worship, and yet I can't help but ask how on earth that can even happen! If I am a sinner (which I most certainly am) who can never deserve nor merit God's love (and I can't), then what would cause a just God who loves Himself most of all ever choose to step into my wretched and pitiful self-seeking and choose to love me?
The only answer I can ever come to is that God's reasons for loving me are completely internal, rather than external. For a perfect God to love something, that something must possess perfection; I am most certainly not perfect, thus I believe that God's reasons for loving me must be completely within Himself, in His perfection. As best as I can figure, God loves me not because of my goodness (which is rags in His eyes), nor my ability to glorify Him (an ability man does not inherently possess), but rather because He created me with the ability to be given that gift of salvation that for the first time enables me to truly glorify Him. Though man is radically corrupted and unable to do any good/come to God in his own power, he is not unable to be given God's free and unmerited gift of grace. God opened my eyes to see His glory as revealed in His Son, and the blood of Jesus covered over the sins I commit so shamelessly and passionately. This knowledge of grace should spur us not into a sort of bitterness toward God, bitterness because we wish God would just love us because of something we had inherently within us; rather it should drive us to joyful and passionate worship of Jesus Christ, in Whom is all of my righteousness and hope.
"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,That saved a wretch like me.I once was lost but now am found,Was blind, but now I see." Glory 2 God!